We go through our daily lives doing things because of the fear…..
I am no exception, as I wandered in this thought I realized that even more….
Humans have become automatic in a fear based environment,
absorbing commercials, Guru’s truths that are meant to be shared not as absolute facts set in stone, governments control of what is good for us,
even in our immediate surroundings, we let others tell us what they think is in our best interests,
which is a lie, it is their best interests of their need to control
which stems from a fear they will deny they have…..
We eat healthy out of fear
not because we enjoy, savor the flavors, the taste
but because we fear if we don’t then we won’t be healthy,
we’ll get sick
you can eat organic, fresh, raw, no meats, no dairy, ect…
each is a choice that you come to for what you need,
but if you are not enjoying it, taking TIME to enjoy it,
then the illness will still be there, over weight is still there…
being tired , no energy, even being sad is still there…..
fear is a poisonous energy that spreads within your body effecting organs,
your state of mind, your heart language, its an invisible poison that keeps you from
being the healthy, happy you….
I have a granddaughter who eats so slow, (sometimes nerve wracking slow )
but she savors her food, and she even uses that word at 10 yrs young..she enjoys the
flavors that come from an apple as she feels the different textures that come from each bite.
Paige doesn’t eat an apple because she thinks it will make her healthy, she eats one because
it tastes good and she enjoys it….that simple…maybe she feels? hears? her body is asking for one
and as she consumes it with the enjoyment for the simple pleasure of taste,
it is sending her body and mind powerful messages,
one that is positive in the pleasure, not fear of what the apple could prevent……
In this fast-pace hurry, instant gratification world, we eat on the run, grab fast food drive through
on the way home, and who can blame us because there is not enough time in the day
but…there is time…..you just have to stop being afraid to take this moment to express your desires
your dreams, your need to share,
even it is as simple as sitting down to dinner,
to have time to share you, your thoughts…..
If you feel you are only the provider in a relationship you create a wall to block receiving
the joy of just being carefree for even a little while….
fear in a relationship can push someone away that should be there…..if one has a fear that
there is not enough money, or you doubt that person can help you if you get ill, you start looking
for one who you think will fill the gap in all those fears….
fear then creates a relationship built not on respect and love or even like,
but a need to eliminate the fear of not having enough….eventually
that fear turns to resentment and once again fear will have you looking to fill what the
relationship is now lacking in for you.
Fear is always a repeating pattern until we tell our self the truth of what it is we really want and need.
Being a good person because it feels good, giving one honor, respect, humility, compassion, empathy,
ethics ….any word can become the positive to describe one’s views of them self ,
just as any of the words
can become negative within if they are used through the state of fear
the energy that we put within each emotion has an inside effect as well as an outside effect.
Do you base your “being good ” on a religion? If God is love, and He does love all His children
why does the fear of His wrath come into that feeling?
Do you go to church because you have the fear that
you will be perceived as a bad person, a God-less person if you don’t.
Fear controls the image or the mask you wear if you pray out of fear of not making it too heaven.
to me, the intention of one’s actions is the steps to their view of heaven. as well as taking responsibility
for those actions. I think saying Thank you and meaning it is the best prayer the Divine could want to hear.
Self help books helped the person writing it and they share in hopes of helping someone…. we read to find magick words for fear of being inadequate in how we are perceived in our mundane life…..I have attempted many times to find a book with those magick words.
each time I put it down, for I know deep inside, I am the only one who can write the magick for myself. I think this world is full of ways to promote fear instead of promoting the trust in our intuition…..such as……( I started with this list on my thinking of fear)
reading the labels for fear of being fed a toxin
eating healthy for the fear of getting sick
deny your words for fear of being misunderstood
create masks for fear of not being seen as good enough or too different
deny your faith for fear of being politically incorrect
go into debt for fear the Jones will beat you to the finish line of impressing the Smith’s
hide your fears for fear being discovered human with emotions
don’t show sadness for fear of being diagnosed as depressed
don’t show being happy for fear of seen as arrogant
don’t show anger for fear of being seen as one with “repressed issues”
don’t show silence for fear of being seen as cold and aloof
you exercise for fear of not having the perfect body
one closes off expressing their true feeling for fear of upsetting or so called rocking the boat in the world
your fear failure as you will be seen not as good as the ones you see as successful
you fear success for you fear the unknown of what it will change in your immediate surroundings
you fear love because you may have been hurt or perhaps heard too many say the word but don’t mean it
you fear… fear for it might appear you are weak or defected in some way so you hide it inside
our individuality is an extension of free will, the choices we make on everyday life….those choices
can define our tomorrow, even if we are not promised that tomorrow, we still have hope for one.
if we choose to fear instead of savoring the moment, we repeat the fear, letting it not only grow within
our own self but it is taken in by those who near, especially our children are influenced by fears they
are exposed too….
all those fears create a negative energy field ….poisoning the air around you..
Dr Emoto shows how your words, thoughts effect water in negative and positive energy….
the movie “What’s the Bleep/Down the Rabbit Hole” shows it in a way it makes sense…well it did to me.
Fear…… a repeating patterning that needs to be broken I think
Fear is also lack of Trust..in yourself, in the people around you, your governments, your ability
to make your own decisions, your constant worry if you have enough ….
To me, fear has made our world a repeating pattern, a Groundhog Day..where we repeat the same day over and over ( I think the movie Ground Hog Day with Bill Murray and Andie MacDowell was…is a powerful lesson…)
because until we see what we are missing, whats right in front of us we will repeat the day,
Dreams, we are missing our Dreams….Fear has replaced dreams
without dreams we stay in limbo, suspended in this one day of thought repeating it….
I had always lived with out fear, (or so I thought) accepting that Goddess/God is always there….yes, I ate healthy because
I didn’t want to be sick, all those human reasons……then I opened up to that human emotion
condition called “falling in love” and then I knew what fear was…losing something that seemed to take my breath away and give it back in the most incredible feelings, colors, expressions….
something/someone that completed me…..and I learned to trust….
but fear came to the other in a stronger energy…making life changing decisions for me without considering
what their fear would have on me. My fear of losing became reality…..
Their fear fed mine and reminded me of what I thought were forgotten and long ago
insecurities, and so many issues that I lost myself…… Have I found me again? sometimes yes, sometimes no
for it is easier to let fear in than it is to let it go….this is not a blaming of the other’s fear, it is accepting my reaction to it.
I think finally accepting what happen has released the majority of my fear, accepting I will never have the answers
is getting easier….
Then there is always those who thrive in their power to instill fear, on a personal or global level….
Relationships based on fear will always break apart….each come together in their own fear based
matters of mind and heart, each trying to control the other with their control, even subtle in the action
where the other may not even see it…..but then maybe they are so used to that kind of control, its easier
to live with someone and know what is expected….in that kind of relationship the thought comes naturally of
“all good things must end”
Global fear is hard for me to understand,for it means a complacent acceptance that the people deserve it,
but then that is probably the same as the personal level of fear induced control too…
I’ve been in mind puzzles these past few days…and I finished my thinking in writing this Sunday rambling.
I see where I am, where I have been, and where I will go….now to take that first step
Thank you for listening to the ramblings of my chaotic thoughts…
I appreciate the time you take to read…and if you made it this far, you know I have been having tea
with Alice and the MadHatter in my own chaotic Wonderland LOLs…
Have a Great week !